Amanda (xdeadxstarrx) wrote in antimolly,
Amanda
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hey everyone. im new here.
my boyfriend just recently broke up with me this past wednesday. i dont hate him. i do love him. ...so im not here to rant and hate yet. hopefully never. but this just this seemed like a nice place to vent out my feelings and hoping to make friends.
well just a little about me and my x.
my name is amanda im 15 Chris - my x. is also the same age as me one week apart.
i live in port richey, florida. this town sux its says old people retirement all over it. but i would give anything to stay here. i have to move to clearwater soon because my dad's job is there .....probably around august i will be leaving.. .whenever the house sells.... so chris wanted to break up now...
i do understand his point...but it still hurts so bad i love him so much and i dont think i will ever get over him.
He said we should break up now and be CLOSE friends (hugs n kisses still).....but not go out because he is afraid if we continue....when i move....i will still want to go out (ofcourse) and we will end up fightng about it and hating eachother or something like that....
so i guess he is happy now... i had my bday party thursday night...it was fun he was there ..and i got some alone time with him....it just hurts so bad to know ... i cant call him MINE anymore...he isnt my BOYFRIEND. i dont think that has sunk in my skull yet.....its hard. but im trying.
well more to tell but dont want to be a bore.
so comment if u have any thoughts or advice.
glad to be a member.
thanx.
>_< Amanda >_
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Its going to take some time Amanda, i hate to say it but your in for a really rough ride, all i can say is dont do what i did, dont try to replace the feeling of lonliness and loss with someone just yet, i did, two weeks after me and my girlfriend broke up (who i love) i somehow got caught up in 2 girls. Started seeing them, and im still kinda there. The reason i say this is because if i had the choice to start over again i would of taken atleast a couple months to get through this, i mixed myself up in too much, and it is so much harder to work everything out from the past...well i wish u best luck and you have a journal reader
oh thank you so much for the comment. im sorry i replied so late i dont understand why i didnt see this comment. but thank you for replying:)
-amanda-
No problem, if you want to chat further give me a email or something, jeffcartier@hotmail.com
alrighty. i shall keep that in mind thank ya:)
I would be happy to provide you with meaningless sex until you replace your boyfriend.
lol thanks but no thanks he has been replaced
hey.. loving the journal.. i was bored.. and looking thro journals.. or member on the journallANTI MOLLY!!!.. haha sweet cause i have the name of molly...
hey, i'm really sorry about your boyfriend. this might be very positive, but you are REALLY lucky your boyfriend wants to be friends after you guys broke up. a guy asked me out once, and it was sometime at night. he told me he loved me and he wanted to be with me forever, and then the next morning he dumped me :[ and the worst part is, we never say more than TWO words to eachother. i think it's really sad because i still have feelings for him, even though i've found somebody new. good luck with moving.. and with Chris :]
welcome newbie. i hope you either find a new love or retrive this love. ^_^. best wishes
hey amanda,
i know exactly how you feel. i had that happen to me. i hated it. it hurt.

it just happened to me recently as well (today in fact). i am so sorry. come and talk if ur not feelin to good.

Fredison
trust me ive been in the same boat as u. i thought my life wuz gonna end cause the boy i loved dumped me for sum tramp, but i realize now that everything is worth it in the end. be strong and u'll pull through.
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